you'll never get to heaven with a smile on your face from me...

So, The End Is Near....

2004-01-21T02:17:24Z

Yes, ladies and gents, this is possibly THE final post in the journal of nicof. No, don't be sad... Not that any of you are anyway...

So, yes.

How come i'm the one being chastised when really, it is her that has done the wrongness by cheating on her boyfriend? I hate myself for having done what i've done, the repeated use of the term, "i'm a cunt" would possibly have forced that into some of the skulls of you ninnies... obviously not all though...

So, anyway... just saying bye from me, nicholas d'Arcy and hello to boy_wonda named after a jarcrew song... it's going to be mainly friends only so you anonymous lot wont get to read it and post diatribe at me... if you want to be a friend, then just add me, i'll almost certainly add you back, if you don't have an account, then,. well, you can get one for free from livejournal.com

I may pop back to explain why i'm not part of the user for self affection movement of men and why also i don't need people to feel good. But, until then, hold your breath. I may rid the world of some of you anonymous posting, women are never wrong types... yes...

If i had more time, i'd do it now... but, well... i don't, i have to be awake in the morning for once.

goodnight enemies/friends

My walls have mouths...

2004-01-13T01:10:26Z

Well... anyway... my one wall... it's evil... it has a hole in it...

My roof is leaky, water comes into the walls, and well, it spits it... yes... not dribble but SPITS it at me... it gets a distance of about 5-8 foot at times... quite odd...

Anyway... modified my mech giraffe to not have a gun... guns are evil.. like axes.

welcome to the mecha-nic-al giraffe of doom...

also...

here's the 'tattoo' i received off barney for an early christmas present... it didn't come off for 3 days... damn indelible ink... the beadle crab does indeed rule the sea...

yes...

Got bored... made this....

2004-01-11T22:01:31Z

well... due to only having evil geocities space again... i made something.. follow the link... yes....

click here...

can't remember what happened last night... other than talking to fizzybarstool... yes... i remember that... i think... i'm lost... it was wet...

Fun...

2004-01-10T01:14:54Z

Well.. Fi didn't come over because she's poorly and so's my mum... never good... but for the best... yes...

went to hereford instead.... don't ask....

jst borrowed pirates of the carribean of my mate matt.... should be fun... i might try out my new dvd ripping equipment... oh yes...

made lots of photoshop art today.... mainly lots of desktops... fun... monkeys and pylons... always good.... next it'll be monkeys made of pylons.... nice...

so...

2004-01-09T01:29:28Z

today i got an agreed date off fiona, photoshop 7, illustrator 10, toast, office X and something else for the mac...

tuesday i'm getting random other stuff including premier, after effects and a hefty taxi bill from lugging my mac to college and back... fun..

i hope my date goes well... it's not really a date, she's coming to mine... and we all know what happens when girls come to mine... poor lass...

Just for eleanor....

2004-01-07T00:50:40Z

here's an update...

well... i didn't quit my job... i'm only working one/two nights a week now and job searching... fun...

i'm attempting to try to date fiona from work... she's stunning, and lovely, and fun, and slightly innocent... i think? perversion is on the way baby!

well... i have a mobile phone now... my sister's old one... hopefully this one wont explode...

steve fesey is back on livejournal! woooo! the man has more sour grapes than an out of date vinyard... well... sometimes... i love his sour fun... yes... xfesseyx for those in the unknowing fun...

have to give a lesson in html tomorrow... should be fun....

odds on me killing those i'm teaching? quite high....

it's phillip newth tomorrow (wednesday) down the worcester art workshop... come along.. it starts at 8...

2004

2004-01-01T04:46:44Z

Well, it ain't a space odessey. It's a few years on. We all dress in silver and eat space cakes. or something. anyway. i nearly quit my job tonight. i should have. life would have been easier if i'd told brian where to shove his stinking money. yes.

i hope you all had a good night if you were out. well, i hope you had a good night if you were in looking after peeps or on your own too. i love you all in your own special ways. yes. night. happy new year.

but remember, the enemy airship may be dead, but my left arse cheek is similar. yes.

2003

2003-12-31T05:57:10Z

So, yes, as this year does draw to its inevitable close, as always, a new one comes along to take its place. Or something.

2003. The year I finally found a job again. The year I became a fully fledged adult (supposedly) and the year I went back to college. It's been an odd one. I've loved. I've lost. Mainly the latter. But, well, hey. Yes. Who cares?

Well, me for one.

See, this year I've done so many stupid things. Stupid things that have led to incredibly bad predicaments and people disliking me. Sometimes, well, quite often, disliking myself.

I seem to have become more foolish too. With advanced age does not come sensibility. I sem to fall head over heels for people far too easily. Seeing only good points when they are infact complete and utter morons with no respect for me what so ever.

For some reason though, people seem to have started falling for me too. This year has seen me be with more people of a female nature in some way, shape or form than any other. I am not a slag though! Please get that into your heads...

Anyway. This year i needed to do things and on the whole, they were actually done. Which is nice. Somethings I reeeeeeeeeeally needed to do didn't. Which is hell. Yes. I managed to pull off quite a few things I wanted to do too. But, well. Thsi is heavily out numbered by those things that I want but still haven't obtained or managed.

My drinking became a little out of control this year. One of the problems with working late nights in a bar which is notorious for its lock in hell most nights. I'm so very tired almost always. My immune system started to fail again too. I'm getting more and more ill all the time. My mental health isn't the best either. Better than this time last year with the attempts on my life and all, but, well... anything s better than that. Really.

Made lots of new friends this year. Some make me happy. Some are just activity partners that I sit with and do stuff with just because they will. Some are smiley. This is good. Smiling is fun. Almost as much fun as sleeping. Yes.

Anyway. Nowhere near as evil as last year's post on my old web-shite. This has been the year, or, well, half year of my livejournal. And it has been fun.

I hope the new year is fun. And easier. Yes.

Good night, and happy new year. Be thankful the enemy airship is dead.

nicholas gordon james d'Arcy-hawkes

LIVE TONIGHT! (not sold out)

2003-12-28T15:45:11Z

DIEGO GARCIA
volta
TYBALT

sunday 28th December
£3 THE MARR'S BAR
WORCESTER....
Doors at 8

Bored...

2003-12-28T04:08:55Z

So, yeah.. went to gonzos... dominorose wasn't there... quite upset... went round her house at about 3.30am.. no one answered the door... i'm feeling quite foolish... anyway... so, yeah.. tried it on with Mark's mate Claire... Didn't go tooooo bad.. But, well.. not too good... Like al's fish.

stolen from the delightful nanbob...

1. What did you do in 2003 that you'd never done before?
animation-o-fun

2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
like hell i did... i din't make any.. i'm crap and have no self belief.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
no

4. Did anyone close to you die?
no

5. What countries did you visit?
wales

6. What would you like to have in 2004 that you lacked in 2003?
a nice girl who doesn't run off with complete bastards...

7. What date from 2003 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
21st October 2003 ... my 21st b'day disaster gig.. the first promotion i'd done... it was a success... plus my birthday part.. albeit a few days late... Jarcrew did rock..

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
erm... achievments... erm..? going back in to education... yes.

9. What was your biggest failure?
making a relationship work

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
broken finger... lots of illness... depression... yes.. fun

11. What was the best thing you bought?
beer... or one of my kill yourself t-shirts

12. Whose behaviour merited celebration?
no one's... we're all cunts

13. Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed?
Jim's... no comment

14. Where did most of your money go?
beer... food... cd's... gigs...

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
not a lot... other than my mac

16. What song will always remind you of 2003?
black dollar bills by hope of the states

17. Compared to this time last year, are you happier or sadder?
happier

ii. thinner or fatter?
fatter

iii. richer or poorer?
richer

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
staying sober an unattached

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
seeing evil people

20. How will you be spending Christmas?
it's gone... but, well... sleeping, mainly..

22. Did you fall in love in 2003?
i thought so, but apparently not

23. How many one night stands?
2... sorry you, and you... well, not you, you're evil and you have hands, feet and thighs like a man. and you raped me... sort of... i was pissed as a fart.

24. What was your favourite TV program?
either emmerdale or neighbours

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
laura... i didn't know her... sweaty rapist!

26. What was the best book you read?
erm... teach yourself film making

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
erm... hope of the states... or... erm... bedford falls... or... erm... i dunno? OH!!!! MY BLOODY VALENTINE rock!!!!!!

28. What did you want and get?
a job

29. What did you want and not get?
love... and a 23 inch pianist

30. What was your favourite film of this year?
no idea, but i watched donnie darko and battle royale a lot

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
went out and got hammered with my then girlfriend and my good friends... had lots of fun sex... erm... saw kill bill...

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
getting a nice lass

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2003?
erm... jeans... and... erm.. tshirts... and my step dad's old stripey work shirts... and... erm... suits and jumpers... and trainers... yes. and a parker...

34. What kept you sane?
the sounding board that is my journal and also eleanor reast...

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
no idea... i had a lot of visualisation fun with holly valance though...

36. What political issue stirred you the most?
politics? what the fuck is politics?

37. Who did you miss?
my nan, still yes... and <lj user="dominorose")... yes. 38. Who was the best new person you met? Eleanor Reast, by a country mile. 39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2003. I learnt all women are evil and will break your heart at the drop of a hat. 40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year. "don't go fucking in the barn (cause the barn's on fire)" chasers.. Mclusky... honestly.. it'll frazzle your arse hair.

Happy Santa's Birthday!

2003-12-25T01:57:28Z

Yay!

I may be old, but well... I still love chrimbo... really..

well... set up my mac today... finally... a picture will be taken just to show me and it's loveliness together... just in case we brea up or something and i need stimulation material... or something..

anyway my children.

A HAPPY CHRISTMAS AND NEW YEAR TO YOU ALL! (and your extended families)

anyway... tonight i went out with Samuel, Barney, Beth, Rai, Jon-Jo and a bit of Milo.

T'was fun. Feel drunk despite a lack of drink. i drank, but only slightly.

Fun was had. Played pool... Lost hideously.. Why am i so bad all of a sudden?

anyway... have a fun one, and i hope santa empties his bulging sack of candy into your eager waiting mouths', as it were... yes.

boreeeeeeeeeeeed

2003-12-24T01:25:29Z

I scored
35%
on the classic 400 Point Purity Test!

Take the test here!

yes... i've lived... badly... at times... yes... i still haven't performed frottage though.

anyway... yeah... i'm bored... saw nizlopi the other night, have i said that already?

I don't know... they were good. yes.

ANYWAY..........

Sunday December 28th @ Marr's Bar, Worcester

BOOZESTOCK-2003, NIGHT 2

DIEGO GARCIA - local post-rock heroes' last show in original line-up

TYBALT - Ex-member/s of the mighty San Lorenzo

Volta - boo hiss

£3 entry... doors at 8pm, i think... come along....

Money grows on trees...

2003-12-20T18:47:40Z

well.. I thought yesterday was bad on the spending front with it costing me £58...

Today was worse... In a good way...

Today's spending = £1499.69

So, yeah... that was two pints and an iMAC... Fun... I got a free scanner and printer though... Value for money fun...

I own a Mac... I'm happy... Yet confused...

fun

2003-12-20T02:26:22Z

well, i'm happy, i think.. if a little green about the gills...

drinking till you puke is never a good idea...

well, i think i'm doing ok with the luce... i haven't 'really' put my foot in it yet...

so, hopefully, over time, and yes, i do mean over time, i'm not going to try rushing into hell this time, something good might come of it... wooo!

the gig tonight was good... missed tigers! i was out with luce at another bar... whoever played first were great... in an odd way... were they summer camp for fat kids under a different name? please... someone tell me...

xjackox, were, in my opinion, pretty shit... but then all my opinions are invalid and therefore void...

the murder of rosa luxemburg were pretty good... only the second time i'd seen them without steve... or was it the first..? i can't remember...

anyway, a good night, a bit toooooo much money spent... (£58!? how?)

and i got a lovely goodnight kiss... happy!

fun-fest

2003-12-17T02:46:28Z

So, yeah... some people don't write poetry for a reason... Mine is that i'm crap...

anyway... so, yeah, there i was, doing some design work for web-fun that may or may not get finished soon... and well... decided i was feeling a little creative...

so, yeah... the reason i don't write poetry is that i'm crap... but yes.. i wrote some...

would you like to see?

I must warn you it's terrible, and well, that's the reason i don't write it... but i did anyway, and for some reason, it's made me laugh and feel pretty damn happy... i have no idea why?! but yeah... fun...

I'm putting it in a cut, so you don't have to look at the badness...

it's called

"misogynous arson warms my cockles"

"One day
I shall write poetry
It will be good
Telling tales
Of how I use girls
Instead of wood
To make a fire
Thawing out
My heart
It melts
They scream
In agony
Like I did
Broken and hurt
Them just heartless
Now helpless
Me happy
And laughing
(Probably in therapy)"

HAPPY!

2003-12-14T03:58:50Z

Well, Happy isn't a word associated with my journal too often... but, well... YAY!

So, yeah, last night me and my mate's girl kind of bonded like i said in the last entry... thankfully i didn't see her tonight...

well, so, she was my shoulder to cry on for just one night, and well, we were together as it were for just one night, let's leave it at that, i know i will...

anyway... so, my msn shoulder to cry on is Luce, she is lovely, i give all my problems to her and she tries to help me out. she's always trying to help me, she got me together with slappysam, even if it was just for one night, and well, she's helped me a lot mentally... but, well... we met up tonight in gonzos... t'was fun... really fun, and well, i think, and i said think as in think with inverted commas, yes "think" we might be dating.. sort of... you would not believe how happy i am... although, well, i'm prepared for a fall... as usual... i hope she doesn't destroy me...

well... goodnightvincntvangogh... or something... ennit x

oh, by the way... from the looks of things i'm going to all tomorrows parties... i'm happy... mogwai+shellac+tortoise=FUNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN! with lots of capital N's

don't you just hate it when...

2003-12-13T03:02:27Z

...the one person you thought was emotionally interested in you turns out to be as shallow as a majority of the rest of the female population?

well, went to christof's 21st... spoke to kirsty about where we were... she was crying in the toilet to her mates at one point, claiming that i could only win her back over again if i had long hair like when i was dating her... fickle, shallow, evil woman...

anyway... my mate's (when i say mate, i mean casual aquaintance who i don't really like) missus gives me a shoulder to cry on... it all went pear shaped and heated after that...

i can't help it that some women find me irresistible, can i?

goodnightvietkong... XXX

nic

is it me...

2003-12-12T03:42:35Z

or does the little user icon blokey look a lot like the chameleon from spiderman (well, the cartoon series at least...)?

Bored... Yet Again...

2003-12-12T03:12:50Z

So, yeah... Bored... Made an animated Gif... Bored... Trying to sort out images/video clips for a talk tomorrow... it's all going wrong... I see a fail a-coming-my-way...

Anyway...

Promote-o-fun...

I think it's the mighty + lovely slappysam who's putting it on...

FRIDAY 19th DECEMBER

THE MURDER OF ROSA LUXEMBURG
TIGERS!
WEREWOLVES ON MOTORCYCLES
xJACKOx
+ DJ Joe Anorak

@ THE APPLETREE, Lowesmoor, Worcester.

an xMAS funfest.... yes... fun... come... enjoy... no idea about a price... it'll be cheap as chips though if there is one... come along... yes...

goodnight vindiesel and stuff. xxx-x

Boreeeeed

2003-12-11T07:43:45Z

I am Donnie, from "Donnie Darko." I'm
pretty troubled, yes.

Which Random Cult Movie Character are you?
brought to you by Quizilla

well, that was a given... I see bunnies all the time...

anyway... it's... erm... 7.40am and i've just gotten home from work... I have college in a minute or two... fun... TIRED is a word i relate to right now. YES. My first piece of advertising artwork is in the evening news on friday... then wednesday then next friday too... no comment on what it is... but yeah... it's shit.. i just made it and sent it in for deadline fun... nice...

gooooooooooooooooooooooooooodnight vietkong

random survey o fun / hell

2003-12-08T01:42:41Z

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*About You*
What is your name?:	Nic d'Arcy
What are your nicknames?:	Well, Nic's short for Nicholas... d'Arcy aswell
How old are you?:	21 and a bit
What color is your hair?:	erm... browny/blacky/blondey? mousey?
What color are your eyes?:	browny/green/hazel
Where do you live?:	Worcester
Do you have any siblings?:	2 sisters
What are their names?:	Felicity and Jasmine
How tall are you?:	5 foot 8-10?
What kind of car do you drive?:	i don't
What color is your car?:	erm? a non-existent colour
What color is your house?:	a browny brick type colour
*Favorites*
Television Programs:	Neighbours, Emmerdale, Hollyoaks & Mona The Vampire
Ice cream flavor:	phish food
Color:	#000000
Time of day:	7.23pm
Movies:	Donnie Darko / Delicatessen
Song at the moment:	The New Lexicon -by- Milemarker
Musicians (Singers, Bands, etc.):	My Bloody Valentine, Diego Garcia, Explosions in the Sky, GY!BE, Mogwai
Foods:	Faggots, Chips and Mushy Peas
Beverages:	Guinness, Diesel, JD
Sport to play:	Football, pocket billiards
Sport to watch:	football... definetly not pocket billiards
Hobbies:	pocket billiards, webdesign, smoking
Day of the week:	Saturday
Academic subject:	Media... I think...
Lunch meat:	Pork with Stuffing (and apple sauce)
Season:	Autumn
Perfume/Cologne:	erm........
Soda:	Dr. Pepper
Place to be:	in bed
Animal:	cats
*Love & Junk*
Have you ever cheated on a boyfriend/girlfriend?:	no
Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?:	no
Are you straight?:	yes
Best eye color in the opposite sex:	blue, sometimes green
Best hair color in the opposite sex:	anything that isn't totally blonde.... well, there are some exceptions
Best height in the opposite sex:	about the same height as me...
Initial thing you look for in the opposite sex (appearance-wise):	eyes
Qualities (personality-wise) you look for in the opposite sex:	perverted sense of humour
What would your perfect date be?:	i have no idea... i'd like so picnic type fun.. but, well... i don't do daylight
How old were you when you had your first kiss?:	12
Where was your first kiss?:	at her school, after it has closed round the back of the science block
Did you enjoy or dislike your first kiss?:	dislike... it went wrong...
What do you like best about your boyfriend/girlfriend (if you have one)?:	n/a
*Your Future*
Dream vehicle:	spaceship
Dream job:	teacher... really...
Dream college:	no idea...
Where do you want to live?:	a house... possibly in worcester... possibly not.
Do you want to get married? If so, at what age?:	yes... sometime in the future, when it happens it happens...
Do you want children?:	yes
How many?:	2
Boys or girls?:	one of each
Names?:	no idea...
What can you see yourself doing in ten years?:	filling out surveys for live journal...
How about twenty years?:	rotting slowly in my grave...
*More Random Junk*
Your pets and their names:	1 cat, toffee
Have you ever gotten something stuck up your nose?:	yes, tin foil
Have you ever jumped off of your roof?:	yes....
Have you ever streaked in broad daylight?:	no
Do you get good, satisfactory, or horrible grades in school?:	satisfactory
Have you ever gotten into a fist fight?:	yes
Have you ever stolen something?:	yes
How many detentions would you say you have gotten?:	a fair few
How about suspensions?:	none
What did you get suspended/detended for?:	attendance...
Do you consider yourself a mean person?:	no
What are your bad habits?:	nail biting, wearing the same boxers for days on end...
Any fears/phobias?:	deep water, well... water, heights... guns, axes... being alone...
Do you sleep with a stuffed animal?:	no
What was your childhood dream?:	being a doctor
Who was your childhood idol?:	to be honest, i have no idea...
Have you ever snuck out of the house?:	yes
Who/what comes first in your life?:	my family
*Opinions*
Do you support the second amendment (the right to bear arms)?:	no
What do you think of President Bush?:	erm.. i don't know... i'm 'being' him tomorrow in a music video...
What do you think of homo and bisexuality?:	it's fine
What is your view on abortion?:	as nike say... 'Just Do It!'
The death penalty?:	nah... now that's just silly...
*Etc.*
Do you have any tatoos?:	nope
Do you have any piercings?:	nope

Long, Random Survey brought to you by BZOINK!

EDIT...
damn it... forgot to cut...

Biting Bullets is Bad For Your Health...

2003-12-08T01:16:12Z

...make of that title what you will... but, well... drunken enthusiasm and emotions is never good...

Well, anyway... how's everyone?

I'm feeling a little better, the past week of rest from college (minus wednesday) has left me feeling a little rosier round the cheeks...

works been a bugger this week, i have no idea how much longer i can carry on with the whole late night early morning hell. i'm not made for it. i'm old and haggard and 'nearly-alcoholic'... working in a bar is not good for me...

i have a lot of catching up to do this week, should be 'fun'. I also have to repair a few damages that may have occured in friendships, well, 'friendster' friendships... i'm crap with words.. and emotions...

anyway.. must go drink lots of water to

A) keep me hydrated so i don't have a mini-hangover tomorrow
and
B) replenish all the water i've lost through tears this week...

yes, fun.

well.. goodnight dear everyone. especially you. and you. and you too. yes.. everyone.

Fun...

2003-12-06T19:42:46Z

a night on the drink with benny p turned into a night on the drink with jim and sam turner... that was a load of fun... me and jim spoke about random stuff, usually involving fugazi... sam spoke about sex and stuff... erm...

well... yeah... that was thursday... i felt sooo ill all week... my head isn't right.

last night, or friday as it is known in these parts ended at 7.30 this morning... spending £8.70 on single pints is more mad than when i was addicted to the black on black floating guinness fun...

anyway... been awake, reading stuff... mainly of a journal nature... playing around with pictures of barney... the outcome should be fun... and well... also looking at headlines and pictures in the journal and the standard trying to see if i can make funny things... then write a story to go with it...

best thing so far is "Prince Charles Jokes Before Firing Off New Crack Fountain"

anyway... the article fun will be coming soon... possibly... i think i'm making a new site for half of the experimental monkey collective... if anybody actually cares that is...

one day i shall partner pete in his life of satire and we will rule the world... possibly...

got to go get naked and wet... then work... yes.

borrrrrrrreduh - awake - homework - o - fun

2003-12-04T04:31:50Z

"When I look at you
Oh, I dont know what I feel
Once in a while
And you make me laugh

And I'll sleep tomorrow
And it won't be long
Once in a while
Then you take me down
When you walk away
When you say "I do"
Oh, but I don't believe in you
I can't forget it
No...oooh

When you sleep tomorrow
And it won't be long
Once in a while
When you make me smile
When you turn your long blonde hair"

yes, i'm bored enough to quote lyrics....

Bored...

2003-12-03T20:12:30Z

thought i'd write a little something before work...

yeah...

gotta go to work...

bye.

...yeah